YET AGAIN.....

Am i again up for it.....u bet...i am... :)     we human beings so crave attention and affection all the time that no amount is enough for us...the more we get the more we want...greed is an inherited quality in all of us.
Though we all inherit this character still we all keep on preaching each other  that greed is not good. I say it's good . keep ur hunger going but make sure to take it in a positive spirit the more you get, strive more to become better so that you can have some more and in the process to become the best will become accessible and enjoyable.
I have been fortunate enough to personally interact with some great personalities and get to know about them and one common thread that i found in them, no matter which field they belonged is their yearning for perfection, to be the best in all honesty and that innocent child-like greed to win the competition by simply being best.
That twinkle, that shine in our eyes makes us special when we feel proud of ourselves,worthy contestants in the game of life and that greed makes us all to yearn for BETTER....NOPES......THE BEST.....
SO BE GREEDY (KEEP GREEDING IN MY TERM...LOL)

BABY GIRL....

Tapping the foot.....
Singing to my own glory...
Baby girl has come a long way.......
Citing her own story...
    The darling of pa
what was a small pupa
metamorphosed n gained
a new avatar
that of a prodigal daughter
 A harsh n soft blend
contradictory to core end
well-spoken yet brutal
the life of musical soire'e
 Tapping the foot...
singing to my own glory
Baby girl has come a long way
Citing her own story....

MOMENTS

I saw him leaving............leaving behind the moments .......the moments to cherish forever............those precious ones that bonds two human beings resulting in communion of souls........................

There left a lacuna........after that.........the pain of  not being able to share...........rejoice togetherness...............but the choice was made.........but was he truly gone...........may be not.............coz there were lots of threads intact in between..........the chord of love still harping the same tune...........the slide of memories n moments flashing on regular interval inside the so called cerebral cavity.....causing numbness and a sense of warmth simultaneously............

Whatever still i had moments.....moments to hang on...........

just live the moment............living for it now..........................

TORN LOVE

He cussed N fussed over

Said things meant nothing..........

She mourned N Groan

Inside, but said nothing..........

The deep connection of being TWO

Was etched deep in hearts.........

Unison was Beyond reach

Terrible was to PART.........

So they fussed n cussed

Saying things NOT meant

He BLABBERED She MOURNED

Till they gone insane...........

Gloved in LOVE together

They HATED each other

Their RESTRAIN from LOVE

Just made them SUFFER FOREVER................

"Dil to bachcha hai ji...".

Feeling gud as i am trying to pen my thoughts at the moment. Thought the itch was there for a while but something was stopping me...don' know what though.

At times i find myself so complicated that i become the most difficult person to understand.The gamut of emotions that we experience somehow goes off-control and then all the hullabaloo starts inside.

Heart is the craziest of all....to control and to make it behave the way we want....it's the most difficult thing i find to handle.

And doing this exercise for a while leaves me turmoiled and restless. But again coping up seems to be the only solution.

Seriously.....n then i actually find myself screaming out "Dil to bachcha hai ji"....n i am not discussing the title of mr.Madhur Bhandarkar's upcoming movie but the ongoing clash inside me that is violent and vigorous at the same time.

Will my heart ever grow up and start behaving the way i want it to.....I wonder....

Experimentation.....

What goes around comes around...ther's is a saying.....

As a kid these sayings actually used to amuse me and i was jus not ready to believe an iota of them. i heard idioms,phrases and lot of guidelines on n off from the people repetitively in all these years of my ever-growing life but actually could understand none of them.

Then, with the passage of time and experiences as if on a genie's wish all of a sudden each of those heard lines started making sense and the non-believer metamorphosed into a believer.

Is it maturity or transition don't know the apt word but nothing made sense without making me go through some kind of pain,some people like to experience first n then believe but trust me smart are actually those who learn to understand without experimentation.

Coz though experimentation enriches one's with confidence,and a journey, yet the outcome might not always be pleasant.

So, i have always belonged to the breed of experimentation though it's not always pleasant,well mostly :)

With every new experience i cried louder ,groaned and moaned more,but each one made me more tough, strong and yess as a side-efffect less attached and more cold.

Though the journey is still on and i know the metamorphosis is painfully slow,jus pray to God that the outcome or the result will make me forget all the pain i am going through......

Hi all.........

At times it's so relaxing..to be able to sit idle with the favorite Blues playing in the background healing the wear and tear inside out...

After twiddling my fingers for a while as it was quite a lazy day....(thanx to my hyperactive ways to live life in fast lane,so doing nothing could be a big ordeal :) ) and after giving up on my sometimes working/non-working LCD, finally i jus played the music, and sit idle with my eyes closed, puffing away the cigarette and i realised the beauty of being able to relax.

Just doing nothing could be so relaxing i forgot looong back as the stress of being the Best and in order, properly disciplined took over and the chances of being alone in my own company got dimmer with the passage of time and growing responsibilities of being an adult.

yep...it has been a pretty fluctuating day for me... after an entire day of summing up all the pending works and declining couple of friends to meet up...i was left wondering facing a big question...now WHAT???

just sometime back i was fretting over this stupid question, guilty of having an unproductive day but after experiencing this beautiful relaxation it hit me that this relaxation was so looong overdue and all of a sudden everything starts looking rosy...

Wow....such are we humans......can't help it....rite ..ya....

Gudnite.......

HI.........

Jus said gudnite to near n dear ones and was all set to hit the sack to delve into the deep ocean of my thoughts that i suddenly realised that i was experiencing overflow of emotions and to vent them out had no option but to blog......

So little days and so many events tat's how actually i can describe my life at the moment. Every day is a new day literally bringing on new challenges and trifles and as m also getting stubborn that m all head on for it.

Kinda tug of war happening around me but it's okie i have the strength and vil do that. people around me says times have changed in typical hindi "zamana badal gaya hai" this i am hearing since my childhood and since then it's changing and so for me it's forever. But then change is the only constant thing they say.

Why is it so hard to trust innocence ??? why good intentions are always looked at with great doubts?? why it's so that the more receptive and humble you are the more u bullied and then people complain about defensive mode... it's been always so for ages and then they say 'ZAMANA BADAL GAYA HAI'

The day these equations vil change i will actually say these lines with pride.

People do the same things and then condemn others for doing that..the equations changes when they are applied upon them .This is how life works but then the ones who did not follow the norms and trusted themselves were actually the ones who brought changes may be for period but atleast refreshing change. Success is not about how many million dollars u have or how known are u but how satiate u feel, i always feel that my competition is only with me coz the person who might be the king in my region..could be nobody in timbaktoo or for that matter at some other place. so..it's all theory of relativity .

As they say that there are other worlds and galaxies that exist so there might also be some form of successful bunch that exist..but do we know that???

In a nutshell i believe in looking at the big picture and live each day at it's best with our best capabilities and be prepared to play the games required without being judgemental and stressing ourselves over minor things, jus follow ur own belief.